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500% Done

by saintdoriangray

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1.
First talks: And I wished I knew how to flirt Replies: I don't care what's under your shirt And it's peculiar only 'cause I should have It's cool that maybe we could keep in touch It's my bad that I like you a bit too much To keep up this pretense Attraction isn't becoming on me I can't help but react offensively Just to let you know, I'm not a good person To hang around Chorus 'Cause I'd beg you for the trust I don't deserve It's better that I fall off the face of the earth That I hide and don't come back till the world ends I never wanted to be your friend Step Three: Throw the instructions away Step Four: Wish for a stricter sexuality Reality is that I fall hard for everyone What if I ignored myself for a bit? Got rid of all existing selfishness I might exist bitter But falling hard is just a part of me One I can't accept gracefully I'm warning you I'm not the best person To hang around Chorus I never wanted to have to hide Why I look sad all the time I'm not, it's just whenever you're there by my side So don't give me the love I don't deserve It's better that I fall off the face of the earth That I hide and don't come back till the world ends I never wanted to be your friend
2.
I fall in love with angels and demons and werewolves too Maybe a cast member or five from Doctor Who But what other thing would you rather have me do Than fall in love with a celebrity Chat a boy up and have him tell me no? That he's done better and I'll say I told you so Insecurity is lame, But I'll never show It to anyone I think would see I'm too scared to think I'm good enough For anyone I might have known I might as well shoot for the stars Cause these mountains too tall for me anyways I'd rather spend all my days Thinking of no one real I might as well shoot for the moon 'Cause it's safer to be broken by someone else Someone who'll never see you go through hell Someone who won't make me feel like this is real (life). It started out with Jensen and his voluptuous lips Don't mention Dylan 'cause he's in love with Britt I've always liked Cole better than his other twin But that's just 'cause when it comes down to it I would rather play it safe than bare someone my soul Chorus I would rather die than waste your time Talking to me, like it's a sign That maybe you would like to walk me home I would rather kill than see me wake Next to a body I could break, With my pinky swear that you would never leave me alone Chorus Without a broken heart to send me to sleep
3.
Paper Heart 03:18
Papercut thin and paper clip deep I hate being awake, but I don't want to sleep You promised, you promised to keep me But I never promised a thing Chorus My paper heart falls down and dissolves to debris My love spills out and it's blue when I bleed No love spell No wishing well Will help me start to breathe Paperweight heavy, Paperback thick Genius like Hawking, but dumb as brick The shower's run cold and she's shaking And she never promised a thing Chorus With paper doll flimsy self-esteem My head explodes My lungs collapse My eyes were never green Nothing's as it seems to be My paper heart falls down and dissolves to debris My love spills out and it's red when I bleed No love spell No wishing well Can help me with my troubles now I'm fine and I can't breathe
4.
My favorite homos in the whole wide world Live on opposite ends of the Atlantic ocean I'll take half the credit for choreographing Confessions laid out over Skype And their love's so beautiful I puke rainbows all over the place They're both so adorable I wanna shove them in a closet and make them suck face 'Cause they make me forget that I'm just a waste of space My track record haunting me, I hear her taunting me, "You were searching for a fake ideal." But that doesn't matter, 'cause I know how you Feel for each other, the best pair of lovers Kept safe with fur and with steel You're my favorite homos in the world because you're real My favorite lesbos in the whole wide world Sometimes shot gun in front of me to get my hopes up They live out in Reno and when I go visit them I don't feel like I'm the third wheel And their love's so beautiful I could stab myself with a blunt knife The years they've spend with each other The Mrs. and Mrs., the ampersand wives Make me forget my sorry excuse of a love life The track record haunting me, all of them taunting me "Your head's your Achilles' heel" But that doesn't matter, 'cause I know how you Feel for each other, the best pair of lovers I've seen since Jensen and Danneel You're my favorite lesbos in the world because you're real You're the Billy and Teddy The Isaac and Danny You're Natasha and Clint Disgusting like Scallison Kinky like Sterek and I swear to Chuck you're all heaven sent To make me feel so good about myself 'Cause you remind me that I'm More than a sack of skin and muscle and fat and bone It's okay, I'll be okay, you're still my friends and I'm never alone And love is always a many splendored thing that I can feel You're my favorite homos in the whole wide world because you're real
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I'm a glutton for pain and for glory For fame, for supporting the Masochist frequency wave To the audience giving applause to the Gossipy bitches performing their life on the Stage an attack, it's a trap, it's a lack of the medication I forgot to Take all the infantry, warn the whole cavalry The world is exploding soon Or maybe it's just you. Chorus I left my love in Canada I left my love alone I left a bitchy voicemail on her phone So let's run to New York City And there, we'll never sleep We'll stay awake till morning, Writing songs and things to keep us both alive And if you die by twenty-five, I'll be there too 'Cause I'm always at your side, I'm like a bruise That just won't go away, set into your bones I left my love in Canada, back at home. Destined for greatness or destined for madness Who cares for the outcome Because I'm in love with you, Scott, stop that imagery I think you're killing me I am miraculous, We are the ones come on Top of the world, I'll top for the girls if you wanted me to Or bottom, we both hit rock bottom, we'll only go Up from here Rising like foam on a pint of beer and Chorus I left my love in Canada Washington, Belgium, and Jax I'll fly out to Toronto to take my lost love back In Scotland and Long Island, I left my arms and legs My friends hold up my body And my family holds my head Keep still, my love My friends hold up my body And my family holds my head And If you'd like to, instead, you can fly to me And we'll push our deadlines back, die at thirty-three 'Cause I won't go away, set in to your bones I left my love in Canada, back at home

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released January 8, 2013

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