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released January 8, 2013

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Track Name: How to Avoid the Friend Zone
First talks: And I wished I knew how to flirt
Replies: I don't care what's under your shirt
And it's peculiar only 'cause I should have
It's cool that maybe we could keep in touch
It's my bad that I like you a bit too much
To keep up this pretense

Attraction isn't becoming on me
I can't help but react offensively
Just to let you know, I'm not a good person
To hang around

Chorus
'Cause I'd beg you for the trust I don't deserve
It's better that I fall off the face of the earth
That I hide and don't come back till the world ends
I never wanted to be your friend

Step Three: Throw the instructions away
Step Four: Wish for a stricter sexuality
Reality is that I fall hard for everyone
What if I ignored myself for a bit?
Got rid of all existing selfishness
I might exist bitter

But falling hard is just a part of me
One I can't accept gracefully
I'm warning you I'm not the best person
To hang around

Chorus
I never wanted to have to hide
Why I look sad all the time
I'm not, it's just whenever you're there by my side

So don't give me the love I don't deserve
It's better that I fall off the face of the earth
That I hide and don't come back till the world ends
I never wanted to be your friend
Track Name: Celebrity Love
I fall in love with angels and demons and werewolves too
Maybe a cast member or five from Doctor Who
But what other thing would you rather have me do
Than fall in love with a celebrity

Chat a boy up and have him tell me no?
That he's done better and I'll say I told you so
Insecurity is lame, But I'll never show
It to anyone I think would see

I'm too scared to think I'm good enough
For anyone I might have known

I might as well shoot for the stars
Cause these mountains too tall for me anyways
I'd rather spend all my days
Thinking of no one real
I might as well shoot for the moon
'Cause it's safer to be broken by someone else
Someone who'll never see you go through hell
Someone who won't make me feel like this is real (life).

It started out with Jensen and his voluptuous lips
Don't mention Dylan 'cause he's in love with Britt
I've always liked Cole better than his other twin
But that's just 'cause when it comes down to it

I would rather play it safe than bare someone my soul

Chorus

I would rather die than waste your time
Talking to me, like it's a sign
That maybe you would like to walk me home
I would rather kill than see me wake
Next to a body I could break,
With my pinky swear that you would never leave me alone

Chorus
Without a broken heart to send me to sleep
Track Name: Paper Heart
Papercut thin and paper clip deep
I hate being awake, but I don't want to sleep
You promised, you promised to keep me
But I never promised a thing

Chorus
My paper heart falls down and dissolves to debris
My love spills out and it's blue when I bleed
No love spell
No wishing well
Will help me start to breathe

Paperweight heavy, Paperback thick
Genius like Hawking, but dumb as brick
The shower's run cold and she's shaking
And she never promised a thing

Chorus

With paper doll flimsy self-esteem
My head explodes
My lungs collapse
My eyes were never green
Nothing's as it seems to be

My paper heart falls down and dissolves to debris
My love spills out and it's red when I bleed
No love spell
No wishing well
Can help me with my troubles now
I'm fine and I can't breathe
Track Name: My Favorite Homos
My favorite homos in the whole wide world
Live on opposite ends of the Atlantic ocean
I'll take half the credit for choreographing
Confessions laid out over Skype

And their love's so beautiful
I puke rainbows all over the place
They're both so adorable
I wanna shove them in a closet and make them suck face

'Cause they make me forget that I'm just a waste of space
My track record haunting me, I hear her taunting me,
"You were searching for a fake ideal."
But that doesn't matter, 'cause I know how you
Feel for each other, the best pair of lovers
Kept safe with fur and with steel
You're my favorite homos in the world because you're real

My favorite lesbos in the whole wide world
Sometimes shot gun in front of me to get my hopes up
They live out in Reno and when I go visit them
I don't feel like I'm the third wheel

And their love's so beautiful
I could stab myself with a blunt knife
The years they've spend with each other
The Mrs. and Mrs., the ampersand wives

Make me forget my sorry excuse of a love life
The track record haunting me, all of them taunting me
"Your head's your Achilles' heel"
But that doesn't matter, 'cause I know how you
Feel for each other, the best pair of lovers
I've seen since Jensen and Danneel
You're my favorite lesbos in the world because you're real

You're the Billy and Teddy
The Isaac and Danny
You're Natasha and Clint
Disgusting like Scallison
Kinky like Sterek and
I swear to Chuck you're all heaven sent
To make me feel so good about myself

'Cause you remind me that I'm
More than a sack of skin and muscle and fat and bone
It's okay, I'll be okay, you're still my friends and I'm never alone
And love is always a many splendored thing that I can feel
You're my favorite homos in the whole wide world because you're real
Track Name: Canada Je T'aime
I'm a glutton for pain and for glory
For fame, for supporting the
Masochist frequency wave
To the audience giving applause to the
Gossipy bitches performing their life on the
Stage an attack, it's a trap, it's a lack
of the medication I forgot to
Take all the infantry, warn the whole cavalry
The world is exploding soon

Or maybe it's just you.

Chorus
I left my love in Canada
I left my love alone
I left a bitchy voicemail on her phone
So let's run to New York City
And there, we'll never sleep
We'll stay awake till morning,
Writing songs and things to keep us both alive
And if you die by twenty-five, I'll be there too
'Cause I'm always at your side, I'm like a bruise
That just won't go away, set into your bones
I left my love in Canada, back at home.

Destined for greatness or destined for madness
Who cares for the outcome
Because I'm in love with you,
Scott, stop that imagery
I think you're killing me
I am miraculous, We are the ones come on
Top of the world, I'll top for the girls if you wanted me to
Or bottom, we both hit rock bottom, we'll only go
Up from here

Rising like foam on a pint of beer and

Chorus

I left my love in Canada
Washington, Belgium, and Jax
I'll fly out to Toronto to take my lost love back
In Scotland and Long Island,
I left my arms and legs
My friends hold up my body
And my family holds my head
Keep still, my love
My friends hold up my body
And my family holds my head
And If you'd like to, instead, you can fly to me
And we'll push our deadlines back, die at thirty-three
'Cause I won't go away, set in to your bones
I left my love in Canada, back at home